Pedro Pascal Reveals The Devastating Last of Us Scene He's Never Watched

Pedro Pascal may be the star of The Last of Us, but that doesn't mean he's watched both seasons completely.

Pascla has been avoiding what fans have come to know as the "porch scene", where Joel finally tells all to Ellie (Bella Ramsey) about how he killed the Fireflies who were going to kill her to save the world. "I don't wanna see it!" he said when Vanity Fair tried to show it to him during a video interview. But he did offer, "I could talk about it?"

"This was one of the hardest and easiest...days of work I've ever had," Pascal said. "We did this scene all day long." It was, he said, a scene where Joel continues his character arc by "recognizing that that truth will mean that Joel loses her, loses Ellie for good, but that he loves Ellie so much he can't lie to her again."

Pascal remembered how it was one of the last scenes he shot with Ramsey. "Bella and I - it was just really f***ing intense," he said. "It was an easy day of shooting, we were beautifully taken care of by Neil Druckmann who was directing the episode. Bella and I are like linked souls and this was the ultimate manifestation of that as scene partners on this porch. And so we took such good care of each other and just kind of like lived in the pain of it the entire day. I remember just being absolutely like emptied out by the end of the day."

"I knew that it was ending, that my run on the show was coming to an end," Pascal went on. "And then you think about what the story is, it was just sort of like living the story out, and having all of the nuance of what my relationship to my scene partner was in the experience of doing the show. And the idea of hurting them, the idea of losing them...those things just broke my heart."

He concluded, "I don't know what the cut is, which is why I don't wanna see it."

Pascal's Onscreen Daughter Can't Watch His Death Scene

Pascal isn't the only one who can't watch certain scenes from The Last of Us. Nico Parker, who played Joel's daughter Sarah, never wants to see the scene where Joel is murdered.

“I haven’t watched the second season because the idea of seeing him die is so deeply distressing,” Parker said while appearing on Late Night with Seth Meyers. “But I’m a huge fan of Bella [Ramsey] and Kaitlyn Dever and Isabela [Merced] and Gabriel [Luna] and all of them, so I do want to watch it because I want to see them. But Pedro dying is just a lot.”